Cherry Tree

Not hiding
just shaded
under the

Cherry Tree
that has seen
me grow
to what I am
from the day I was born

Slowly letting
the sun
shine down on me
as it becomes later
in the day

My shelter in
the pain

The beauty
I see outside
of my window

Beautifully grown
to be bigger than me
strong enough
to protect me

Yet allowing me to be free


Copyright [May 24, 2006] By: Tiffany Conner

unattached butterfly

It's time to fly
open the closed wings
let go of this secret breakdown-

no more opening or giving so easily
just to feel it ripped out of me-

I'd rather fly above it all
and focus on the beauty surrounding me-

having freedom of expanding and seeking
what is healthy enough for me to look up or fly above-

as the chaos remains below
untouched as I am unattached-

reaching a destination of something somewhere
held in peace of a new life
unattached butterfly

Copyright [April 15, 2006] By: Tiffany Conner

fatherless daughter

another one gone
showing all a man can lack
the void eating at me
a desperate hole for a father's love alone

deceived, betrayed, misinformed
and left to deal with so much
that was not worth it
not meant to last

time to seek more
to hold onto a love
deeper and real
lasting longer
than this pain

a Father to the fatherless
more than able to take me further
to sustain me
and father a weak, numb
fatherless daughter

Copyright [May 16, 2006] By: Tiffany Conner

foolish state

knowlege never will come from age
my experiences have
taught me my foolish state
i will always look down on
being petty and fake
and my death could have been
that unbearable guilt
of knowing i put myself
in this place
that is only one reason of many
of why i needed to escape
please ease my mind
and put me in place

Copyright [April 22, 2006] By: Tiffany Conner

reserved

I am well hidden and reserved
judged and misunderstood
manipulated, deceived target
used as an escape
put in a position
simply to be hated
sleep is underated
pointless and annoyingly awake
I'm tired and sad
but I must do
what I must do
I have an inch of integrity
to hold onto

Copyright [October 19, 2006] By: Tiffany Conner

Me in Your hands

You formed my heart
please mend it
In need of Your patience and peace
Id rather be soaking You in
than indulging in the world

I want my life to be for You
not half heartidly
but all of me in Your hands

Im not good at detaching myself
Too stuborn to give up my ways
Incredibly weak
Desperatly in need of
Your embrace.

Copyright By: Tiffany Conner

Built on YOU

Finding it hard to concentrate
disappointing distraction
a hopeless heart exists
I remain, trying to maintain
my life built on You
somewhat surrendered
I struggle in looking back each day
why must I face this?
what is there to learn?
thought i knew
but i am being forced to relearn
Unhealthy longing
a desire
that consumes my every thought
I am allowing this to come between us
to deteriorate my time
Find it so hard to hear from You
only due to my stubborn
and foolish mind
Needing to be brought back to
YOUR FOUNDATION
strong and Christ-like
loving You
and enduring to the point of suffering
For You
not due to my many mistakes

Copyright By: Tiffany Conner

RESURRECTED

The promise of new life
undying, unending love
Irreplaceable, unchangeable God
yet I struggle and let my
shame tear me down
Your beauty is intoxicating
and Your grace impossible to understand
This is the reason I live
press on, endure
Im lifting my eyes up to
Your snow covered mountains
Your deep gray sky
How am I living for You?
I feel I am in constant failure
I cannot comprehend such power
to raise from the dead
but I know it is truth
for You are truth


Copyright By: Tiffany Conner

Rain

beautiful tears on my windshield
bluring my vision
changing the focus of my eyes
bringing green to the world
matching the sorrow
but melting the droubt
meloncoly and quiet mood today
but its ok
because of the rain
only distant because i slipped
but im being put out to dry
and im due for a good cry
don't laugh when its not funny
and im hurting
due to weeks of hiding from
so many i have come to love
over the years
if Your hands could just
grab my heart
and hold it right at Your beat
thats the only way i could
stop being this fool
but i long for more
i remain distant and ungaurded
weak in Your wisdom
looking to my interest
so im just going to sleep
pretending not to run
i remain where You have me
I need You to hold me in Your peace

Copyright By: Tiffany Conner