Trying to decide                      
 On a home
 To move on in my life
 To conquer my dreams
 This place is lovely
 To the eye
 Harsh to the worker
 Trying to do everything 
 We can do
 To have dignity 
 To prosper 
 But I cannot do that
 In a position I hate
 No time to enjoy 
 The decision we made
 To live in such a beautiful
 And enjoyable state
 I am so disappointed
 And sad
 We moved here
 To live here 
 For 2 years 
 Then go back?
 I am amazed how hard I have tried
 To fight
 I feel defeated 
 Torn 
 And lost
 4/14/09