Happy Birthday My Love

My happiest moments

are when I am

out on the town

with you

And by town

I mean down town

This house is fine for now

and we are happier than most

even at our worst

Nothing else should matter

not going to get caught up

in what everyone else thinks

I am done trying to please

Happy Birthday my love ♥

it's your day

nobody else s

30 is here

and we will be alright.

SAFE

Safe in the arms

of the man

who would never leave me

by choice

Happy knowing he loves me

I feel cherished

comforted

by him

4 years ago we locked lips

after taking vows

3 years ago we moved

and had a beautiful

and challenging adventure

1 year ago

we bought our first home

and dog

I am safe here

no matter how many

past disasters creep up on me

I will hold onto

my safety

my love

Because no other

man has loved me

the way he has

a devotion that only

a true man can give

-May 2011

"Marriage has in it less of beauty but more of safety, than the single life; it has more care, but less danger, it is more merry, and more sad; it is fuller of sorrows, and fuller of joys; it lies under more burdens, but it is supported by all the strengths of love and charity, and those burdens are delightful."
-Bishop Jeremy Taylor

The Storm

Pouring on us
Repeatedly
We are soaked
Maybe instead of drowning
Frantically
We need to wait
For the storm
To pass
For the skies to lift

If you hold me
I will hold you
Tired of feeling overwhelmed
Maybe it is ok
To be helpless
To know we cannot
Control everything

We need to stand by each other
To gain strength
We can be each other’s shelter
While the storm passes
While the skies lift
Together we can make it through
Repeatedly

sentimental

ever find definitions poetic? i do…
sen⋅ti⋅men⋅tal–adjective 1. expressive of or appealing to sentiment, esp. the tender emotions and feelings, as love, pity, or nostalgia

a bit more sentimental
than i want to be
writing every 5 minutes
can't keep holding it in
am i bad sister
or wife
if i show tears
or my fear
why am i so damn anxious when i am here
am i where i am supposed to be
but denying it
then i think to myself
i miss investing my time
where my heart is
that place is home to me
as much as i hate that fact
they are my friends
even if i have changed?
time will tell
swallowing the emotion
it is a lot to digest
pretending i am held together
if i am
it is not my hands holding me in place
i am a mess inside
hoping i will be accepted
as i am now
there is such a comfort
being far from it all
from my father
who does not know how to be a father
maybe it is the music
it can be intoxicating
maybe it is the boredom
of the job
but i know i cannot worry anymore
i am a bit more sentimental
than i want to be

nostalgic- a wistful desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one's life, to one's home or homeland, or to one's family and friends; a sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time.

zombie writing on post-its

i can barely keep my eyes open
so ready to be at home
resting with my love
there has to be more to life
that this corporate greed
i feel i lose my dignity
a little everyday
as i wait on the crowded elevator
to go up and waste my day

i count my blessings
glad i have a job
but should i not long for more
to fulfill my time?
i would feel so much better
if i could help the ones
struggling to get by

so many left in the dust
of the ridiculous corporate bailouts
while the people
are foreclosed on, laid off, homeless
left with nothing
with no helping hand

i am in this cubicle
for the majority of my time
working for a wage
to barely get by
making the rich richer
and I am literally sick to my stomach

http://www.naturalnews.com/021911_America_corruption_corporations.html

Help Haiti

i cannot even imagine what those people have been through! such a sad and devestating disaster. my prayers are with those that have lost loved ones and those suffering through the rumble and the heart ache. when things like this happen, it really puts things into perspective. you never know when something like this will hit us.

"This is a time for all of us to be reminded of our common humanity and do all that we can to help."
Help Haiti, Drop the Debt:
http://one.org/international/actnow/haiti/?rc=haititw
you can also donate to the red cross: https://www.networkforgood.org/donation/MakeDonation.aspx?ORGID2=530196605

1000 miles away

excited?
depends on the day
i am going up and down
every few hours
this overwhelming feeling takes over
yielding me
from doing anything else
but drifting
don't know where my thoughts
have gone to this time
but i know they are not here
and while i try to find my mind
i am reminded against my will
of those that have caused me pain
how easy they are to ignore
when i am 1000 miles away
excited?
might not be the right word
need my comfort
i need his touch
to hold me in place
to remind me there is
good in this world